A ligkaribe Poem - Forbiden part three

Forbidden part three
So this is our story
It is the non story
Of our love
That never was

Somehow
I cannot let it go, forever there with me
sitting by my side next to me
like clinging child that wants my undivided attention
reminding me always
that I should never forget
Cannot forget my obligations to that which I created
my duties to that which is of me and from me
my chores in relation to that which depends on me
is helpless without me
Is needing me for its every breath
even then, when I turned away
I found I could not shut my mind
I could not turn of the cinema in my hallucinations
Nor somehow find my way out of this mirage
Forever lost and wandering here
In this endless delirium
Of believing in the prophecy of our phantasm love
I could not erase that which was a part of me
Deeply etched in my smoky brown skin
Like tattoo lines that speak
of deep understanding of ancient wisdom
But only to find that wisdom is only an illusion
For with us and this doomed love
there is only confusion.
Illusive to me as water through my clenched fist
There never was a straight line
Only sometimes dashes in the sand
swept away by the gentlest of breezes
and so I am alone walking
seeking to follow the path that leads
finally to your doorstep.
I can only beg
please come to me
I need you