A ligkaribe Poem - Forbiden part two

Forbidden two
I never had a choice nor stood a chance
You never asked
All you did was take
It was all about took
And claim
And force
These words you breathed to me
Woven within every sound

Bathed in the sweat of your hate,
love, wants, needs, passions
I don’t know anymore what it is, is it love
Or any kind of feeling at all
Or is there emptiness only, shell like
Covering of bleak existence
Cloaking me in desolateness huh

I knew you were there before I saw you
I heard you speak to me
Of promises & eternal togetherness
Of loves deepest longings
Of wants and desires, left unfulfilled,
seeking only completion and utter release
in the completeness of our unification
A coming together of two deep desires
A culmination of erupted passion
Draped in your divine tenderness
Tender feelings and no more alone

Seductive whispers
seeking to convince me of your nearness
Your closeness, and the endless possibilities
that are within your deep arms embrace
The dreams hidden behind your hot tasty kisses
liquefying my thoughts and emotions
The fulfillment behind your closed eyes
my closed eyes
Together our eyes closed in the darkness
unwilling to see
Dialogue of a world not of this world
A world of our own making
For just us two
Only us two in rhythmic symphony
And harmonious flow

Deaf to your words deaf to your speak
For I have not the abilities to let myself go
in your arms
blind to the truth glaring in your eyes
I feel your warm embrace and your loving arms
But I deny it even to myself as only delusions
born only of my deepest longings
and so this is how you took
when I turned away and thought it was all over
when you had said goodbye but don’t forget me
when you had said goodbye and I had turned away in sorrow
this is how you came and took

then I did not know if I could ever again
be without the feeling of you inside me?

What can I say then?
Is it me
Or is it you
Am I to blame
Or are you
Is there fault any
Or only the fulfillment of this
strange cruelty that is world
I find I do not have the answers
And so I shall rest
I shall let it be just here
Just now
Just so