Wolf Killer

I chose this title because I always liked that name for Lestat, Magnus calls him “brave strong little wolf killer”,

“Lelio the Wolf killer…Sunlight in the hair, he whispered and the blue sky forever
fixed in your eyes…You’re perfect my Lelio wolf killer”.

and because the scene where he kills the wolves in the snow has always been one my most memorable in the Vampire chronicles.

“ Right now I’m thinking about the snow all over these mountains and the wolves that were
Frightening the villagers and stealing my sheep…since I was the only lord who could sit on a
horse and fire a gun, it was natural that the villagers should come to me, complaining about
the wolves and expecting me to hunt them. It was my duty...”

“That was my life and it might as well have been lived in the middle ages. I was unhappy and
ferocious as I rode up the mountain. I wanted a good battle with the wolves...”

“It was an ambush and I could never make the forest in time. And the pack was eight wolves,
Not five as the villagers had told me…”

“I think as I scramble to my feet, I knew I was going to die.
But it never occurred to me to give up. I was maddened, wild. Almost snarling, I faced the
Animals and looked the closest of the two wolves straight in the eye...”

“That was the end of it, the pack was dead. I was alive. And the only sound in the empty snow-
Covered valley was my own breathing and the rattling shriek of my dying mare…”

“By the time I reached the castle gates, I think I was not Lestat. I was someone else
altogether, staggering into the great hall, with that wolf over my shoulders, the heat of
the carcass very much diminished now and the sudden blaze of the fire an irritant in my eyes”

I recommend you read the whole scene someday. So primitive and it makes me think of how each one of us has this life defining moment maybe not as dramatic. However it is something that changes us irrevocably, it may not necessarily have a direct effect on future events but it plays a big role somehow. An event never forgotten.

Where would some of us be without Ann Rice, ever wondered? I have always loved historical novels, the Victorian mills & boons were my favorite. Ann Rice is always so accurate and she really brings her characters and the period to life in an astounding way. They become real people, real and unforgettable. I recently read a book of hers Christ the Lord, I did not know that she used to actually be atheist – it never really occurred to me. I quote in her epilogue / Bibliography where she says

“every one of my novels since 1974 involved historical research…without ever planning it, I’ve
moved slowly backwards in history, from the nineteenth century, were I felt at home in my
first two novels to the first century were I sought answers to enormous questions that became
an obsession with me that simply could not be ignored,..

Ultimately the figure of Jesus Christ was at the heart of this obsession. More generally, it
was the birth of Christianity and the fall of the ancient world. I wanted to know desperately
what happened in the first century; and why people in general never talked about it…after
that I wrote many novels without being aware that they reflected my quest for meaning in
a world without God…

I left the church at the age of eighteen…no personal event precipitated this loss of faith…

I stumbled upon a mystery without a solution, a mystery so immense that I gave up trying to
find an explanation because the whole mystery defied belief. The mystery was the survival of
the Jews…I couldn’t understand how these people had endured as the great people they were…

it was this mystery that drew me back to God. It set into motion the idea that there may in
fact be a God…many of these scholars…disliked Jesus Christ. Some pitied him, and some
felt an outright contempt…I’d never come across this kind of emotion in any other field of
research.”


I think it is so admirable that she can say that. For any individual to be able to grow and change their point of view like that to me is admirable. Often people make a decision, they become stuck in it unwilling to explore new things. In my view that can hinder your growth as a person.
Great Doubt, Great Awakening
Little Doubt, Little Awakening
No Doubt, No Awakening.
(from the Zen tradition)
I loved the book, the only complaint I had is that it ended too quickly. I would have liked to see him right up to the time he became, ok right up to when he turned 30.

She brought out some interesting aspects, i.e. that carpenters were in fact highly respected and sought after as a profession. As the builders of the temple, the synagogues etc I suppose their skill was highly regarded so that makes sense.

There is a belief that Jesus stayed that long before he started his ministry because he was looking after the business when Joseph died. But that doesn’t make sense to me - he had brother.

The book challenged me in a way I had never realized before – I have never really doubted the existence of God, but the existence of Jesus is till a problem for me, the virgin birth, the miracles, and especially the resurrection are hard for me to grasp. To be confronted with a flesh and live Jesus in the book was amazing. Especially a younger version.

In David Walsh’s conversations with God. God says that he has sent many messengers, or appeared himself to different people in different forms and appearances, and yet all that has done is create confusion because others say, no that could not have been God, because when he appeared to me he looked like this and not the way you say he looked when he appeared to you.

The rich man and Lazarus parable – Moses says to Lazarus, I can not send Lazarus to warn your brothers- there have been prophets sent before, Moses has been sent, so has Elijah, So has Noah – if they can not listen to the prophets, they will not listen even if I sent a man from the dead to talk to them.

Personally I don’t know about that, I’m like “{I’ll listen Moses, I will just send me a dead someone I’m sure I’ll listen” wouldn’t it be so much simpler – I mean the fact that no one has ever really come back may actually mean it isn’t possible to, because there is nothing, have you ever thought of it that way. But again there is the reincarnation thing so who knows.